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Sat, 22 Oct 2005 17:17:26 GMT

so it's up the stairs
and out of view
no prying eyes
i poured some wine
i asked your name, you asked the time
now it's two o'clock
the club is closed, we're up the block
your hands on me
i'm pressing hard against your jeans
your tounge in my mouth
trying to keep the words from coming out
you didn't care to know
who else may have been you before
i want a lover i don't have to love
i want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
♥ ♥

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 01:27:58 GMT

we're all alcoholics.

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 22:45:11 GMT

+ had a lovely drunken weekend.
- barely slept the entire time.
- feel like complete shit
- fatness = has got to go.
+ off from school tues & weds.
+ barely working this week.
- my friends really suck & i need new ones.
+ NO SCHOOL WORK.

so life is alright for the most part. :]

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 23:52:31 GMT

dude the downtown is being closed down. i'm pretty upset.

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 18:39:08 GMT

"you shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are
just because somebody else has a problem with it."

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 02:35:12 GMT

i won't ever be good enough for you, or anyone for that matter. but you know what? i'm over it. cause guess what people?! NEWS FLASH: i ain't getting pretty anytime soon. and i ain't getting skinny anytime soon. deal with it. hate me. fuck me. ignore me. push me away as far as possible. what fucking ever. i have finally come to realize that i won't ever fall in love. and i don't want to waste my life and my time thinking about when this amazing turning point in my life will happen, because it won't, and i'm so done. i give up on you stupid worthless people. i'm on my own. none of you can break down these walls that i have built. and i'm riding my own wind, now.. and forever.

peace out.

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 01:08:12 GMT

okay so school is starting tomorro and i want to die. i am so not prepared. like i'm in denial, summer is still here, we don't have school, what the fuck! but this summer was the best ever, it was one big party and went by so fast, which sucks. i miss all of the graduated seniors alot, i'm going to walk into school tomorro and probably cry. it's going to be like one huge culture shock with all of them not being there. ugh, it sucks. i'm really just not ready to go back to school and deal with everything, it's senior year we have so much bullshit to take care of, ahh i'm nervous and i'm so scared. but whatevs, i guess it's kinda cool that we're on top of the school and all now, haha i love it. these three years went by so fast, how insane. let's hope that this year starts off good, and everything is good, and i can just relax and enjoy my year. i don't want to have to deal with stupid drama like last year, so fucking worthless. so here's to us, seniors 06 bitches! ♥

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 16:54:54 GMT

todays my birthday bitches. =)

♥ ♥

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 17:58:15 GMT

wow ok.
life has been so good lately,
i don't even know where to start.

so first off, montauk was amazing.
there was only one night spent sober.
cause i'm just that cool.

and yesterday was officially,
the best day of my life.
my best friends are amazing,
and so is sushi at 10pm.
"the four girls in the third row in bikinis."

i'll just leave you with this..

.. "MIKE JONES!" ♥

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 23:59:02 GMT

i'm leaving tomorrow for montauk, aka my second home. and i won't be back til the 20th. i'm really fucking excited and have been looking foward to this week since the beginning of the summer. 'let's get retarted part duex', holler.

PEACE OUT BITCHES ♥

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 22:53:52 GMT

"having had considerable time to ponder on it,
i've decided that i love you, more than most people can imagine."

♥ ♥

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 22:31:18 GMT

hi my name is sara and i should really stop smoking and drinking, my voice is completely gone and i sound like a 60 year old man, no one really likes me and i kind of have no friends, and i am a complete and total mess. kthanks =]

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 23:37:23 GMT

i really hate my life. i think alot, and sometimes i think that if one of these days i just happened to get run over by a huge truck, no one would even notice that i was gone. nor would they care. the sick thoughts that i think, i know. but it really is true.

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 18:27:18 GMT

today is my last day of grounded-ness.
thank god, i am sick of this shit.
and now i can finally go out
and party,
and be myself again.
holler. =]

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 00:46:02 GMT

taken in context, it's not a bad thing.
but, when you start to pick it apart, it gets so depressing.
it's that sorta thing that makes you think too much.
it's that sorta thing that makes you lose your objectivity,
so if you made it, just be glad that you did and stay there.
if you ever feel loved or needed,
remember that you're one of the lucky ones.
and if it's over, just remember what i told you,
it was bound to happen, so just keep moving on.
there's no perfect endings.

♥ ♥

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 00:21:41 GMT

yo, i feel so effing shitty.
but my fourth of july was so hot.
i love my friends.
alot alot. =]

♥ ♥

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 20:41:38 GMT

i just cannot get over how insanely fucking beautiful he is.

♥ ♥ ♥

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 23:51:18 GMT

i am so completely convinced that the only things in life that can make me happy are coffee, cigarettes, & alcohol. everything else in this damn world is just worthless & causes too much pain.

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 19:33:04 GMT

summer is here, officially. i love it ♥

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 15:33:58 GMT

this made me cry.

To the girl who will replace me;
There are just a couple of things that I thought I should tell you. I learned these while I was the object of your guy's affection. First of all, don't be frightened if he smothers much more love on you than you had expected. Don't be surprised if he treats you much better than any other guy you have ever met. And let it not scare you that he will actually listen carefully to every word you say, even when you're just speaking quietly. Also, you should know that he remembers everything you will say. He's hurt easily, especially by the painful words a careless girl will say. If you do hurt him, then you'll have to pay the price of seeing the broken look in his passionate and deep brown eyes and watch the light in them fade. But if this happens, all is not lost- a kiss and an "I love you" can heal anything. And please, don’t say I love you to him unless you really mean it. Nothing hurts him more than someone who really doesn’t care. Sometimes he won't tell you what he is feeling but just know that he is protecting you and if you ever feel that something isn't right, just look into his beautiful brown eyes and you will be able to see into him. You can see everything he is feeling, everything he is thinking, everything that isn't right with him. He won't ever try to hurt you because he just isn't that way so please don't hurt him because if you do, I don't think I could ever forgive you. I don't think there could ever be a worse feeling in the world than knowing that you have the boy that I love and knowing that you hurt him. You should know that if you two ever get into a fight, just make sure you pick only the ones worth fighting for. He will always keep his temper and will never call you names despite the anger he may be feeling. Though he may act mature most of the time, once he's given you his heart, he will begin to open up to you and his silliness will make your heart smile in a way that words cannot explain. Don't hold a tight grip on him; let him go and be part of the world and experience new things. You will find that he is a busy guy and that he is so very independent. Sometimes he will need his space but don't worry; he'll always make time for you and even when you're not around, you'll be in his thoughts. You will find that he isn't like any other guy that you have met so please don't take him for granted. When it comes to his money, don't take advantage of that. He will be so unselfish with it because that is the way he is. Remember, he likes blue better than green, brunettes better than blondes, Republicans better than Democrats, salt water taffy over licorice, khaki over denim, leather over cloth, and even though he won't admit it, he really does like to be surprised. He is less tough than he may appear; you just have to take the time and let him bring down his guard. He is so sweet and so amazing and know that if you ever leave him, you will break his heart apart the same way that my heart breaks apart as I sit here writing this to you. Don't ever try to pull him away from his dreams. He is going to be an extremely successful anything and won't ever let you give up on your dreams either. He will encourage you to become everything you can be and will never, ever let you down. He likes it when you kiss his ear and nothing is better than hugging each other. Just watch how your hand will fit perfectly into his and when it does, it seems as if nothing in the world could hurt you because he is there. And when he puts his arms around you and tells you that you are the girl he loves, you will know there isn't any guy in the world better than him. Don't ever let him go. You will regret doing so for the rest of time. I promise you will.

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 16:23:03 GMT

could someone maybe hire me as their sex slave for the summer?
cause i kind of really need a job. =/

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 04:39:44 GMT

it took me about a fucking ahlf hour to log into this damnn live joruanl shit.. but likeee drinking make syou realize alot i duno if an9yone has noticed. itssss like it makse your ealize taht you need to start living for yourself for f ucking once. and that you dont need toa care about anyone else in you rlife bc no one ever fucking ares about you. just live you fucking life party it up bc sits fukcing SUMMER OF 05!! HELL FUCING YEAH. okayyy i am donnenee =] IO LOVE YAAAA.

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 22:31:03 GMT

hey loves ♥

so yesterday was the last day of school.
aka the last real day of junior year.
we're gonna be big bad seniors next year =x
it's really kind of scary.
but i'm so excited.
i'm gonna miss the graduating seniors
& i duno what i'm gonna do without them.
i love you all!
but summer is here & i'm loving it.
gonna make this one crazier than the last.

and.. the end.

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 23:11:54 GMT

you know that it's love,
when all you want
is for that one person
to be happy.
even if you're not a part of their happiness.

♥

Mon, 30 May 2005 23:45:37 GMT

ohmygod.
this weekend was a complete blur
but it was so crazy.
god damnit, i need summer.

♥ ♥